Questions...

It's all smoke and mirrors...

2007-08-09T15:29:00.000-07:00

I've said it before.. but here it goes again.

I just wanted to let you all know I'm consolidating my blogs. I had way too many. From now on you can find them at electricvinyl.livejournal.com or electricvinyl.deviantart.com The deviantart page will also have artwork and such. Fun fun. So please check them out.

Also I'm going to stop using my juno email. It has become overrun with spam and it is no longer free to use. So if you need to email me, send me a message and I will send you my new email.

A journal form DeviantArt

2006-10-25T10:36:00.000-07:00

Thought I would post it here too...

I started trying to teach myself to draw a little over a year ago. I had always been interested in learning how and doodled some over the years but nothing serious. Then in Jan of 2005 I got a job that required me to be on the phone for 8 hours a day. Boring as all hell...

To combat this I walked to the Borders across the street and bought a book I found on drawing Manga. I took it back to work, busted it open and tried to draw... obviously the results were mixed, having no prior experience and really no concept of proportions. But I pressed on and by the end of the first week or so I was able to draw a fairly decent headshot. Two of the heads are posted here, Surprised and Happy. I was very happy with them.

Eventually, after drawing head after head, some better than others, I moved onto bodies. I struggled with learning the proportions of the arms and legs to torsos and heads. I struggled to make the characters look more then two dimensional. I kept on trying though I didn’t give up. I loved doing it and it killed the time of miserably being on the phone.

After building up a little bit of skill from where there was once nothing… something happened. I got a new job. A job where I can’t just sit and draw all day. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job… but I haven’t had time to draw anything in months. I did the Kitten picture seen here on a lark on day back in February and I was very happy with it but until recently haven’t done anything else. I participated in 24 hour comic book day earlier this month, and found that, as I had expected, the minimal amount of skill I had built up was about gone… as the 24 hours pressed on I slowly tried to relearn as I churned out pages. Some came out better than others. I also attempted to create a mascot for my local Anime club for a contest, and it was a miserable failure. I’m mad, I’m frustrated and I have no one to blame but myself…

I want to draw more, I really do. I’m thinking about taking a class, or something I have to commit to get back in the groove. So if anyone out there has any suggestions or comments that may help me I would appreciate it… Thanks.

Such the deviant...

2006-10-21T13:41:00.000-07:00

For those of you interested...

http://electricvinyl.deviantart.com

Nobody cares...

2006-10-13T14:03:00.000-07:00

why should I?

24 Hours is so long... it's almost like a whole day or something...

2006-10-11T12:16:00.000-07:00

This past Saturday (Oct. 7th) at around 11:30am I walked into my local comic shop to participate in the international 24 Comic Book Day Challenge. Once a year people all over the globe gather into comic book shops and sit for 24 hours straight writing and drawing their own comic book. It can be anything they want or have the ability to produce, with the best works collected into a book for publication later this year.

http://www.24hourcomics.com/

I found out about it the week before and signed up hoping it would spur my creative juices to actually get something done (writing and drawing). I hoped it would kick start me into full writing mode…

I arrived early and checked out the weeks comics and talked to a few people. I was going to be in the shop for 24 hours straight (or so I thought at the time) and I left all my distracting items (books, PSP, Gameboy, etc) at home. Just me and my Ipod fully devoted to churning out the best thing I can possible do. Lunch, Dinner, Snacks, Breakfast, Water and all art supplies were provided by the venue. The goal was 24 pages in 24 hours, 1 page every hour… Quite a task…

The clock strikes noon and off I go… or so I thought. I sat there for 45 min, doodling different pages, different images trying to come up with an idea that would be fun and simple to do. I couldn’t decide. Eventually I decided to do something that I had been doodling around with in my head for a while now. So I put pencil to paper and started working on Samurai Catgirls in Love.

I brought a few of my art-books to use for reference but I forgot my mannequin for action poses… I’m not skilled enough to do action poses without some sort of reference.

I managed to stay on pace more or less, cheating once to catch up by doing a loud onomatopoeia “CRACK” across one page.

However I wasn’t particularly inspired and most of my comic is just heads talking back and forth like a newspaper comic strip. Also I was doing something that most people were not and maybe I shouldn’t have been. I was inking everything…

I tried my best, but at 4 am I was exhausted, my hand was killing me and I couldn’t go on… I was on page 15. I read through what I had done so far to see if there was anyway I could finish the story, or at least get to a good stopping point… but I was just so tired and frustrated with my lack of abilities. I realized I hadn’t drawn in so long and was depressed that my skill had regressed so badly. I think what disappointed me the most was the lack of story… there was none to speak of. I was also very upset with my lettering of the comic. My handwriting looked like a 4th grader, it was embarrassing. Sigh…

When I couldn’t keep my eyes open any more, I did 2 pages of text asking some questions and stating to be continued and put all the pages in a folder and dropped in the box on my way out. It was 5 am and I had done a total of 18 pages.

I find out this weekend when I get the pages back, and if anyone is interested I might post them here or on photobucket. Not sure why though...

Ttyl

Q

Someone needs to beat the shit out of me...

2006-10-02T14:17:00.000-07:00

Sigh...

So anyway...

2006-09-29T09:13:00.000-07:00

In the past, this blog has been very vague about personal information regarding myself. This was for a few reasons which include, remaining loyal to the character of The Question, and personal safety.

The other day a friend of mine said that they would like to see more about what I'm doing and what I have been up too. Which is fine, I can understand that. So let me give you the long and short of it.

I've been working.

Yeah that's about it. My days consist of waking up, driving an hour and a half to work, working 9 to 5, and either driving an hour and a half home or (if I'm lucky) going to the gym then driving home. In July I was able to attend both Anime Expo and the San Diego Comic Con. This was fun, but again it was for work, so I spent a lot of my time behind a booth and not really seeing the shows. I was also lucky enough to be able to attend (the final) E3 for one day.

Don't get me wrong, I love my job. I love it very much. It is the best thing that has happened to me. But if I didn't say it is stressful and the commute is killer I would be lying.

I also hate LA. It is so ass backwards and politically correct here I want to throw up. I have a limited amount of friends (4), who I see but rarely do to conflicting schedules and distance.

Anyway, that's enough griping for now.

This weekend I'm planning on working on two stories that have been bouncing in my brain. If I don't, I really want someone to beat the shit out of me... or at least slap me around a bit.

Someone on myspace posted this questionnaire, which looked liek fun. Enjoy

1. You and Jesus go out to dinner who pays?
I would pay, even if he insisted on paying to which I would sneak off and pay the check while he was in the bathroom.

2. You suddenly have to flee the country and adopt an alias. What is it?
Vic Sage, I’ll let you guess why…

3. Pick one state in the U.S. to get rid of permanently?
Ummmm…

4. You wake up as the opposite gender what's the one thing you wanna try?
I would dive meticulously into the female psyche, examining the intricate workings of the female mind and comparing it to my own thoughts and feelings in hopes of understanding and learning how to help better myself as a person…. Yeah… that’s… that’s exactly what I would be doing… yeah… you believe me don’t you?

5. Luke Skywalker or Han Solo?
Neither, I liked Darth Vader. Least I used too…

6. Toy you always wanted but never got as a child?
I must have been spoiled rotten because I can’t think of one

7. Top three celebrities you wanna do:
Oh geez… I’m really not into celebs but I guess Rosario Dawson, Scarlet Johansson, and Sung Hi Lee

8. What's an automatic deal breaker in a potential significant other?
A lack of generosity, kindness, and intelligence

9. What is the last movie you saw that actually scared you?
Don’t remember

10. Stupidest thing you've ever said out loud?I have a doodle book full of these… but the only one I can remember at the moment is “My foot feels like a pork roast” … Long story

11. You're sentenced to death and it's the morning of your execution, what do you want to eat?Filet Mignon and Calamari Scampi, Mashed Potatoes, Chef Salad w/ Honey Mustard, Clam Chowder Soup. And hell because it’s my last meal I’ll have assorted Sushi too.

12. What's something that most people do that you've never done?
Been drunk

13. Before you die you want to go to...?
Japan

14. Something you'd really like to do but probably won't ever be able to do?
Make everyone happy

15. A wild animal you'd like to have as a pet?
Wolf

16. A drug you'll never try?
Anything illeagal

17. If you were an animal what would you be?
Fox or Wolf

18. If you had to marry someone you knew at the age of 12 who would it be?
12?! Shit… um… I don’t remember anyone

19. What's something most people don't know about you?
I have a thing for Catgirls. Yeah I know it’s weird, sue me.

20. First celebrity crush?
Nikki Cox

21. What's a weapon to suit your personality, habits and abilities?
Kitana

23. Favorite breakfast bread style (pancakes, waffles, toast etc...)?
Pancakes

24. Favorite parody movie?
Blazing Saddles

25. Worst way to die?
Skinned alive and rolled around in salt

26. Grossest injury you've ever seen?
A guy who had been bisected by a train

27. The worst injury you've ever had?
Compound fracture of my left wrist

28. Did you watch the husker game?
The wha?

29. Favorite thing about thanksgiving?
Family

30. Sport you hate the most?
Football

31. What city in the U.S. do you want to visit?
Never been to New York

32. What's something you think would be sweet to know everything about?
How to draw comics and manga

33. Favorite Modern Actor/Actress?
I used to be able to answer this, but I’ve become so displaced from modern cinema I really have no idea.

34. What's one phrase you absolutely detest?
“Got what’cha need?”

35. What makes an awesome party?
Good People

36. What's your material obsession?
Anime and Comics

37. What's something most would consider an insult but you like it said about you?
You need to grow up

38. Favorite kind of dog?
Pembroke Welsh Corgi or Lhasa Apso

39. Favorite carnival food (everyone has one)?
Corndog

40. Morning or night person?
Night

41. Worst drunken/drugged up habit?
None

42. Weirdest ebay purchase?
I don’t think any of them have been weird. Mostly books and artwork.

43. Favorite food to eat when you're wasted?
Never been wasted.

44. Its Saturday at 3am where are you?
Playing a video game trying to pass out

45. Who's your favorite friend to go out with?
I’m just happy I get to go out with friends... it doesn’t matter who my favorite is.

46.Worst job you've ever had?
Clerk at a Rhodes 101 stop. See #34

47. What's something your friends make fun of you for?
If they do, I have no idea

48. Favorite cereal?
Clusters

49. Book you could read repeatedly?
Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman

50. What's the meanest thing you've ever done?
I made my little brother cry once

51. What was your best Halloween costume ever?
A homemade robot costume when I was 6. Made from large cardboard boxes spray painted silver. I couldn’t move without falling but it was fun.

Q

Those who forget the past...

2006-09-26T16:48:00.000-07:00

For the second blog entry of this blog relaunch, I have decided to port a posting I made about a year ago regarding writers block. It’s an important post for anyone who considers themselves a writer or artist or whatever, because while it focuses specifically on writers block, the remedies provided can apply to the hindrances of any creative work.

So if you have not read it before and you are having problems finishing your latest masterpiece, I hope it gives you some insight and helps point you in the right direction. If you have read it before, read it again… you may have missed something the first time.

But before I get to that, Scott Kurtz creator of PVP, has posted a blog on his site that really makes some excellent points regarding becoming successful in a creative industry. Please read it here.

So without further delay:

*My "On writing..."*
Originally published on September 23, 2005.

“On to the business at hand…As many of you know, I am an aspiring writer. I want to be a published author, and I have many short stories, novellas, and novels in the works. Most of these are unfinished or in-progress works that haven't been touched or worked on in a couple of months. And while I do have some finished works, how many stories do you think I have submitted to be published? One. That’s it. Just a five page short story that was... rejected.

So what’s holding me back? What's keeping me from writing, finishing, and submitting my work?

Fear of rejection? Maybe…
Self Doubt? Possibly…
Too many damn video games? No comment…

The fact of the matter is that… I’m just lazy. Too lazy. So lazy that I don’t call it lazy… I call it writers block. But let’s be honest there is no such thing as writers block. The human mind has hundreds and hundreds of thoughts and ideas flying through your little head every day… hell every hour even. At least one of those thoughts has potential to become something to write about. So really, there are only four reasons people get “writers block:"

1) The aforementioned laziness.
2) Fear
3) Distractions
4) All of the above

So let’s address these issues:

1) Laziness

The fact of the matter is you have to make your own muse, your own inspiration. If you just sit around (watching TV, or surfing the web, or playing video games, or whatever) waiting for the idea to magically come to you, I got bad news for you. Ain’t gonna happen. If every writer waited for divine inspiration for a story, then Barnes and Noble wouldn’t exist.

Now I’m not saying that there is no such thing as a muse. Far from it. I’m just saying you can’t count on it.

You have to sit in front of the computer (or typewriter for you old-fashioned types) and write. To quote a movie “A writer writes… always” inspired or not. And if you can’t think of what to write or what should happen next… write something else… like a blog.

2) Fear

Fear can be many things. Here are some common ones:

a. Fear of rejection.
b. Fear the story is going to change from what you originally envisioned it to be.
c. Fear of that you aren’t talented enough
d. Fear of spiders (there could be one on your keyboard)

There are many more, but I won’t get into them because these are the important ones (except for maybe the spider thing). And here is the way to overcome them:

a. Get over yourself, and write! The worst that could happen is you are going to get a note mailed to you that says “No thank you.” You know what you do then? You pick up your shattered ego and send the writing somewhere else. Also don’t be afraid to send the story out just because you aren’t sure where to send it. Your stories are never going to be published if they are sitting in your computer waiting for you to decide which magazine you rather get a rejection letter from this time.

b. Get over yourself, and write! You can always change it back to the way it was if you don’t like it.

c. Get over yourself, and write! Sure there are hundreds of aspiring writers, some of which are much better than you are. But, guess what? They most likely suffer from the same anxiety as you do. If you get off your butt and get it done before they do, then you are more likely to be published then the depressed beatnik genius who sulks in the corner all day. Also the more you write the better and more talented you will become. Just like anything else, practice makes perfect.

d. Rolled up newspaper.

3) Distractions

This one is easy. Turn off the damn TV! Stop playing the damn video games! Write, dammit write!

4) All of the above.

If you suffer from a combination of these “writers’ blocks” then I have one final opinion to hand out to you (because these are all just the opinions of someone who can’t take his own advice). You control how you write, how frequently you write, and what you write about. No one else. You! Not your Mom or your Aunt Tilly. You!!! And while you can’t control if anyone gives a damn to buy your work, you can increase your odds that it may happen by writing and submitting as much as you can.”

. . .

Absolutes...

2006-09-25T16:31:00.001-07:00

There is an inherent fear in all people that what we do is for naught… every good deed, every act of malice, every kiss, every death… everything will eventually be forgotten and therefore in the end does not matter…

Many people come to this realization, either consciously or subconsciously, and do what they will to fight it. For to be remembered, to leave the slightest inkling that you were here is the hope of every person on this Earth. We want to be remembered… to be liked… to be loved… to show the rest of the world that we mattered if only for the briefest of moments.

…

But…

Is this how it really is?

While quantities of people scramble in the face of oblivion, there are equal quantities that do not. Does this mean they are unafraid? Do they not care? Or maybe there is another thought…

The thought, again consciously or subconsciously, that every single person’s life impacts another in some way, and that person’s life affects another, which affects another…

Going on this theory, just a handshake can change the course of future, the swatting of a bug can save thousands of lives, and a single night of passion can lead to the fall of empires. These moments we can’t see seem unimportant and forgettable, yet are in all actuality the fabrics of things to come…

We see the world in absolutes. Black and white, yes and no, right and wrong… Nothing matters or everything matters.

But…

The problems with absolutes are… that we forget the shades of gray.

Sooooo... How them resolutions coming?

2006-01-17T13:23:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm... wha? Oh! Ummmm... yeah... resolutions... I... Hmmmm

Okay well, let me just put it this way.

Pretty good so far. ;)

Ha! Thought I was going to say I haven't done anything, didn't ya? The past two weeks I've gone to the gym a total of 9 times! I'm really proud of myself, plus today I have an appointment with a trainer who is going to set up a plan for me.

Okay, okay, so there is resolution #1, what about 2-4... Well that is where things get fuzzy...

I still haven't written or drawn anything. Bad me, I know. I also haven't submitted anything. Double bad me! I will though, I must! By the 31st, two weeks from today, I will have 2 stories submitted and at least 8 new pages of story down on paper. And one or two drawings! I have to do this. It's for my own good. If I don't do this I will have to punish myself...Please get the thoughts of whips and chains out of your heads... I don't mean that kind of punishment. Most likely I will ban myself from Video Games since those seem to be the biggest deterrent of me getting these goals accomplished.

Everything else is going great other than I just got over being sick. The job is great! I was made an Asst. Organizer of the Anime club I joined. I'm buying a TV and just bought a crap load of anime I need to catch up on. LOL.

So all that said... in short I'm doing great. :)
How are you?

Q

Today's Anime Quote: "All work and no play makes me... you." -- Lupin the 3rd

Happy New Year! ( And Belated Merry Christmas)

2006-01-01T21:34:00.000-08:00

I just got back to California after a week in Chicago visiting family for the holidays. I had a wonderful time and I am a bit sad to be back home. I had a great Christmas with many very nice gifts. For those of you that care, I received: 4 gig nano Ipod, The Complete Calvin and Hobbes, The Muppet Show 1st season DVD, A few manga books, and some gift cards. Not bad eh?

I can't believe it's 2006 already... 05 went so very fast it's kind of scary. Anyway, lets take a look at 2005's resolutions and see just what I accomplished...

1: Lose Weight
2: Get published or at least submit something to be published...
3: Figure out if California is right for me

The first one is easy... it didn't happen due to lack of motivation on my part. So this resolution still stands as one needing to be accomplished. But that is gonna change, partly due to my new job. You see, after work I sit in LA traffic for 1 1/2 hours waiting to get home. Why the hell should I do that? I could use that time doing something constructive. So I have joined a 24 HOUR FITNESS that is approx 5 miles from work. Everyday, instead of sitting in traffic, I'm gonna spend that 1 and 1/2 hours working out, killing the time while the traffic disappears. (I've tested this theory, and it works great. After working out, it only takes me 30 min max to get home). I have to do this, it's going to start affecting my health if I don't. It's gonna be hard and painful, but I have to do it.

Number two was completed halfway. I submitted but was not published. But I only submitted 4 stories and that's it. That's not good enough. On top of that I haven't written anything in over a month. That's plain terrible and I'm ashamed of myself. I also haven't drawn anything in over a month. I could make excuses but I'm not gonna... This is my fault all the way. So this resolution also still stands.

Number three is vague to say the least. Something great happened this year. I found a job here in Cali in my degree field. I'm so happy about that and I am determined to do the best job I can there. But just because I found that, does that make Cali right for me? I'm not sure. I haven't made any real friends I can hang out with. I did join an Anime Club (which is great and I really enjoy) but they only meet once a month. So to put is simply I'm very lonely... Is Cali right for me? I still honestly don't know.

So on to this year:

2006 Resolutions!!!

1. Lose Weight! (See above plan for details on how I hope this will be accomplished)

2. Write and Draw More (I must write at least 4 pages and draw one picture every week. This blog will be a record of my progress from now on. The drawings will be posted here and on Anime FanArt's Journal)

3. Get Published (I will submit no less than 2 stories every month, starting now)

4. Make Friends and have Real Life relationships as opposed to virtual ones (As much as I love my MMO... it's killing my social life. I must find a way to do both.)

So there we are... a bit more specific than last years and complete with plans to accomplish each one (Except #4). BTW I could use any motivating and cheering I can get. Also open to suggestions!

Thanks for listening.

Q

(Sings) The Final Countdownnnn… Nanana na nananana Nanana na…

2005-11-30T11:29:00.000-08:00

Is it bad I have this song stuck in my head?

(Looks around)
You know, I am actually going to miss this place (just a lil). I’ve been here almost a year. Heck, if it wasn’t for Princess Cruises, I wouldn’t have figured out how much I enjoy drawing. It gave me the time and the place to work and practice my skills with a pencil. For that I’m very grateful. To honor this I drew a new picture today, which I will display later.

I’m gonna miss a lot of the people here, and I hope to keep in touch with many of them (3 people in particular).

Tomorrow will be my first day in my field, Publishing. Wow. It’s hard to believe after the strings of “jobs,” I will finally be starting my career. Something that doesn’t make me feel like I wasted five years of my life in college. The excitement is almost too much to contain.

So goodbye to the Travel agents. Goodbye to the cranky old people who are upset that the bingo numbers are to small or that the butter wasn’t next to the bread in the buffet. (Yes, I heard both of these complaints)

Hello to Anime! Hello to Manga! Hello to Video games! Hello to Happiness! Hello to Excitement!

I think for the first time since I moved to CA, I am truly happy…

BIG NEWS!!

2005-11-29T09:50:00.000-08:00

Some of you know this already, and I’m not sure who they have shared it with so I’m just going to make a general announcement.

Come this Wednesday (tomorrow), I will no long be employed by Princess Cruises. Starting December 1st (Thursday) I will be employed by PLAY magazine.

GO ME!

I’m so happy and excited; I’m counting down the hours.

For those of you that don’t know, PLAY is a Video Game and Anime magazine… a very good one at that too. I’ll finally be working in my field (Journalism/Publishing) and I’ll be working in TWO genres of entertainment that I absolutely love.

http://www.playmagazine.com

So how did this come to be?

Well, about four months ago (on a whim) I called the magazine to inquire about how one would go about getting a job with the magazine. I left voice-mail messages for the Publisher, Director of Operations, and the Editor in Chief. About a week later, there was a message on my voice-mail from the Publisher saying he wanted to get in touch with me and answer my questions. I was surprised, but immediately called him back and left another voice-mail. Then I called again the next and left a voice-mail… and the next day… and the next… I was worried that I was being a pest, but I really REALLY wanted this.

After about a week of voice-mails, I get a call. It was the Publisher. We talked for about 45 minutes about the magazine, the gaming industry, what my goals were, etc. Then he told me he liked my persistence on how I kept calling. The call ended, and I was to send him a copy of my resume, which I did that night.

I waited two days to hear from them, I wanted to make sure they had received my resume. After I didn’t hear anything, I started the phone calls again, this time about once every 2 to 3 days. Still didn’t hear anything. After about three weeks I stopped calling.

FAST forward to about two weeks ago, I’m at work and the phone rings. I didn’t recognize the number so I wasn’t going to answer… but something told I should. I got up from my desk and answered it…

ME: Hello?
VOICE: Yes, is (my name) there?
ME: Speaking.
VOICE: This is (his name) with PLAY magazine.
(Short pause)
ME: … Hi!

They asked me to come in for an interview, because I had really impressed them with my persistence earlier in the year. I had made them remember me! I was in shock. Of course I would come in for an interview! WOW, COOL! I took a day off work the next week and went in for the interview. I was in there for about three hours, where I met the Publisher, the Director of Operations and the Editor and Chief.

Two days after my interview, they called and offered me the position.

So that’s the story. Pretty damn cool. Only took me a little over two years after getting out of college to get a job in my field. And it’s with a magazine I truly love and enjoy to read. =)

So how are you?

Q

Oh, on a side note, I started another blog over on live journal. Why? I dunno since I can’t even keep this one regularly updated. That one is going to be more fun and games I think, while this one… well is also fun and games with serious stuff thrown in between.

I haven’t forgot about you.

2005-10-13T19:32:00.000-07:00

I’m not trying to neglect my blog. I’ve just been really busy. I’ve been working on that story for the contest with what writing time I do have. It’s up to 1700 words… which might sound like a good thing, because I’m just now about halfway done. The problem is the contest only wants stories that are 1500 words maximum. So I have this story that is going to most likely be about 3000 words for a contest I won’t be able to enter.

Oh well, I’ll just have to send it somewhere else because I think it is really good so far.

After I finish this story and submit it, I’m also going to submit Guardian Angel (my short fantasy story I wrote for “the challenge”). Speaking of submissions, I should be hearing back about those last two stories any day now. I only hope they are good responses like the one Len just received (if you haven’t been reading Len’s blog, you should be, the link is to the right).

I’m thinking about buying a game called Guild Wars. It’s another MMORPG, with no monthly fee. I’m a bit apprehensive about it for a few reasons. Mainly is, the last thing I need right now is to become addicted to 3 different games at once (Yes I said 3 because I’m beta testing another game… Shhhh! Not allowed to talk about it! But in all likelihood I will definitely be buying that game when it comes out). Plus I might become addicted to this game and neglect the game I am paying for. Then there is the thought I’m going to be shilling out $40 for a game I don’t know if I will even like and or ever play.

So those were the cons, here are the pros. I’ll have a character creator for a fantasy type setting that can help me design characters for my fantasy novel sitting on the back burner. I have a friend already playing (She’s one of my friends from City of Heroes) and she says it’s really fun. No monthly fee. And it got great reviews on IGN.com.

BTW, as far as City of Heroes goes everything has been straightened out. My friends know what they need to know and they still talk to me and play with me. I was worried and full of anxiety over nothing it appears. Typical.

Other then that everything is good. The new car is good, the job is good (wish I was getting more money, but hey who doesn’t), I’m starting to exercise and write everyday. Things are looking up…

Which means any day now equivalent exchange is going to kick in…

Laters!

Q

(Singing to the “Log” theme from Ren and Stimpy) It’s Blog! Blog! It’s better than bad… IT’S GOOD!

2005-10-07T16:29:00.000-07:00

So… how are you today? Good, glad to hear it. Me? I’m better than I was. A new car will do that.

Okay, I said I would clarify what I said about women on Wednesday. Now please, I would like to reiterate before I get into this… this is not how I think all women are. Every rule has exceptions, and this is simply a broad generalization.

There was a dramatic monologue I found on the internet when I was still in college. The title of it was “The Ballad of the Nice Guy.” It’s summed up basically as this: Men are told growing up that they are supposed to be a knight in shining armor. Chivalrous and charming. We should treat woman like the goddesses they are and our reward is that we will never be lonely. The main character then goes into how this is a load of bull. Sure, women like nice guys… to be their friend. For passion, sex, and love women want (for lack of a better term) assholes. Guys that treat them like crap make them all quivery and filled with lust.

My favorite part of the monologue is when the main character is talking about how his girl “friends” call him after some jerk broke their heart. He tells how he comforts them while they rag on all men being jerks.

(Quoted from memory)
ALAN- “They say to me, “Alan, all men are jerks.” Then they realize they are talking to a guy and hit me with “Oh… but not you Alan. You’re a nice guy. When some girl finds you, she’s going to be the luckiest girl in the world. Oh but it can’t be me, because I’m only attracted to guys who are going to shit all over me.”

So there it is in a nut shell. The sad thing is that this is very true. Now of course there are exceptions, and I’ve know one or two girls who this does not apply too. But especially since I’ve moved to California I see it more and more. Hell, shock jock Tom Lykis teaches classes over the radio on how to be a jerk to get women. I listen to him everyday for a few reasons: 1, he’s really entertaining. 2, while I don’t agree with many of his views, there are equally as many I do agree with. He says that “Being a nice guy doesn’t get you laid,” which I have found to be true. He says that if you have money and power nothing else matters and “Women will crawl all over you. You’ll get more ass than a toilet seat.” Is that all women really care about? I’m beginning to wonder. Maybe California is getting to me…

But despite Tom’s teachings I can’t bring myself to be a jerk, the nice guy is firmly entrenched into my being. I’m sure I could shake it off if I really tried, but do I want too?

Erase your Head

2005-10-05T20:17:00.000-07:00

I wrote a poem today. At least I think it was a poem. Despite the numerous creative writing classes I have taken, I’m still a bit fuzzy on what makes a poem a poem. I’m not a fan of poetry, never have been. Of all the poems I wrote in college I only ever kept one. It was called the Orange Poem. It was pretty funny I thought. Anyway, so I’m sitting at my desk and… well… it’s one of those days. A depression has seeped into me. When that happens I start examining what I don’t like about myself, which as you know can only make the depression worse. Today’s thought are focusing on the fact I am incredibly lonely. So bad in fact, I got angry (subliminally) at a cute couple I saw walking around in Borders. I caught myself giving them evil looks. How dare they be happy. How dare they be in love. From those thoughts it moves on to how I’m starting to think women are nothing more than superficial beings who only want guys with a tight body, rock hard abs, who is holding a bag of cash and treats them like dog crap. (I apologize for the offensive nature of the previous remark. Please keep in mind I do not really think this is how all women are. Maybe I’ll expand on this tomorrow). From there it moves back to myself and my inadequacies. My weight, my lack of motivation, my crappy social skills. Poor me, pity me, feel sorry for me. (Frankly, these feelings make me sick) Then I get sick of feeling that way (See) and I turn the depression into motivation. A motivation to change what I don’t like about me. I say I’m going to start exercising… lose this extra weight I’ve carried for the last 15 years. I say I’m going to sit and write, get myself published, and make my own luck. I say I’m going to start going out instead of sitting at home, find a girl who will love me for just being myself. I’ll be witty, charming, the life of the party. I just need to take that first step. Because you can change… no matter what anyone says. You have to make yourself happy. You can do it!

Then that motivation disappears… it can only last so long. Then I’m back to the same old routine and the process repeats itself in a few days.

But anyway like I was saying I wrote a poem describing what exactly I was feeling today. Why a poem? I’m not really sure. It just kind of happened. I sat down at the computer and it just sort came out. Is it any good? No idea.

In other news, I’m probably picking up my new car tonight. It finally came in.

(Update 8pm PST… I have a new car)

And that big surprise I was hinting about? Not quite ready yet. Hopefully soon.

Q

No Blog Today

2005-10-04T16:02:00.000-07:00

Shhhhhhhhhhhh!

Can’t you read the title? I said there would be no blog today. I’m way, way to busy reading Neil Gaiman’s new novel “Anansi Boys” (Available everywhere GOOD books are sold). I’ve been waiting for it to come out for a while now, and I just finished chapter 2. It’s pretty good so far, and if you like Gaiman’s other works (Neverwhere, American Gods, Good Omens, etc) then you should probably be reading this one too.

I started a story for that writing contest I mentioned a few days ago. I got a really weird, yet very interesting idea I’m fiddling with.

Still waiting for the new car to come in… It’s officially been a week.

I’m terrible with remembering birthdays as many of you know, but I WAS getting better. Why “WAS?” Well, I hadn’t forgotten to call a family member on their Birthday this year… until yesterday. It was my sister’s 5th birthday. I had called earlier in the day but she was at school and I told my Mom I would call back later when she was home… never happened. I don’t know why I can’t remember birthdays. It’s not that I don’t care, I really do, and I feel like crap when I miss them. I just hope they forgive me is all. And if I forgot your birthday this year, I’m sorry and I hope you forgive me too.

In no way, shape, or form was this a blog… cause I’m not doing one today.

Q

How I spent my (not) summer vacation. By Q

2005-10-03T18:17:00.000-07:00

Well, autumn is finally here and as a tribute to the years gone by I’m going a review of a couple of things I did that were fun and exciting… and not so fun and exciting.

Part 1: San Diego Comic Con (July)

The Con of Cons. The Big One. And I was there… for one day. I had fully planned on going for two days but a few things threw that idea out the window. Namely, no hotel to stay in and no money. So I drove to San Diego that morning and drove back that night. The good news is I got to do everything I wanted to get done aside from not getting that many sketches in my sketch book (total of 4 I think). Met Greg Rucka (READ!) again… he’s still cool. Met Frank Cho, the main reason I went to the show and my main disappointment. Frank was nice enough, but he wasn’t doing sketches… the main reason I went to the show was to get a sketch by Frank Cho. Hence my disappointment. None the less, if you haven’t read Liberty Meadows, you need too. It’s fun.

Part 2. More Friends: The Music of Final Fantasy (May?)

Needless to say I was really looking forward to this. I was upset I missed the first one that happened last year, so as soon as I heard they were doing a “sequel” of sorts, I bought my tickets right then and there. Now I’m not going to say I was disappointed… It was good… but not what I expected. The entire show was plagued by technical problems: Microphones not working or working when they shouldn’t. There also was this constant slamming (like a door) coming from off stage. Then when Nobuo Uematsu (the composer of most Final Fantasy music, for those of you that don’t know) came on stage for the finale performance of “One Winged Angel” there were four, yes FOUR, false starts. It was so bad that Uematsu got very embarrassed and actually walked off the stage for a period of time. Other than that I enjoyed myself.

That’s it for today. If all goes well, I may have a surprise for all of you tomorrow or Wednesday.

Laters,

Q

No tack hammer needed… Mwa ha!

2005-09-29T17:25:00.000-07:00

Last night I sent my Crime/Mystery/Supernatural short story "A Man Walks Into a Bar…" to a magazine called FMAM: Futures Mysterious Anthology Magazine. It was sent via e-mail, which is the only way they accept submissions.

Today, directly after work, I’m heading to the post office to submit my Romance/Supernatural/Horror story "Together" to a magazine called Talebones.

So in other words, I have defeated the lazy, fearful, distractions and did something I truly needed to do. You can all put the tack hammers down now, you savages.

Wish me luck!

Q

P.S. Short blog today, sorry. Busy day!

P.P.S. This was written while at work, but not posted to this blog until the above tasks were accomplished

Submit…

2005-09-28T16:32:00.000-07:00

I’m submitting two of my stories tomorrow. I just need a few things first.

I have 3 possible prospects for markets to send these stories too. I will be doing research tonight to find which 2 of the 3 are the proper ones.
1) Web research is required.
2) I need to update my cover letter.
3) I need to defeat my fear, laziness, and distractions and actually get this done tonight!

They will be sent out tomorrow. If I don’t do this, and you hear me give excuses why tomorrow, I give you permission to hit me over the head with a tack hammer… ONLY IF I DON’T SUBMIT THOUGH!

I’m also trying to convince this guy I know to work with me on developing a comic. Not sure he wants too though because he is really busy. I helped him a few days ago (even though he is already 1000 times better than I am), with my super-critiquing-editing skills, pointing out a few minor things he might want to try. I also let him borrow a few of my “How to…” books. I think he is pleased with the result… Now if I just convince him to work with me… mwa hahaha…

By October 10th I’m going to try to start and finish a story for a writing contest. The only criteria is the story must begin with the line “The alarm buzzed…” and the deadline is October 20th! No Pressure!

Another day, another blog… I hope I can keep this up.

Q

The Question Returns

2005-09-27T17:33:00.000-07:00

So, this is my reward for updating my blog everyday?

They are advertising on my “personal space,” on my “journal?”

Oh really swan? I think not…

A few other people have had problems with this recently, and it looked as if blocking the anonymous bloggers was the solution... but that doesn’t seem to be the case anymore. The evil ones have acquired screen names now. I was lucky before, posting so infrequently that I never got one of those pathetic attempts to peddle. Now that I’m updating regularly, at least one appears on each blog entry.

Please notice that some of them tend to be posted almost immediately after the blog is published to the web. So, somehow, someone, knows exactly when we update… It’s like they are watching us. Someone now has control over our space. Almost makes me wonder if Blogger has sold us out… Have they become part of the conspiracy? Have they joined the media in trying to brainwash us? Trying to tell us what we need to see and don’t? Hmmmm… need to process this further…

It seems that what we see, hear, smell, say, and touch is not determined by ourselves. We may think it is, but we are sadly mistaken. Even things we create can become soiled by unseen hands. I’m beginning to think we have no control… even over our own will.

But together the truth is seen and this can be prevented…

Q

Another Day, Another Dollar, Another Dollar Spent, Another Blog

2005-09-26T15:21:00.000-07:00

Howdy.

Since I received such an overwhelming positive response to my insight on writers’ block (okay one person… but still!) I have decided to maybe, possibly submitting it to some online writing websites that specialize in helping struggling writers. Who knows, it might help people with the same problems I have.

Speaking of writing, I just bought the newest Neil Gaiman novel, Anansi Boys. If you don’t know already Neil Gaiman is my favorite author. He wrote my favorite novel, Neverwhere. This one looks like it should be pretty good based on what I have read so far. If you haven’t yet, I do recommend you read Neverwhere, Good Omens, and American Gods. Available everywhere books are sold or in libraries for you cheapskates.

Anyway, I am buying a new (2006) car. The Chevy HHR. It looks like a PT Cruiser (same designer) but bigger. I like it. It has a lot of space inside and gets 30 mpg on the highway. I put the papers down on it yesterday and it should be delivered to the dealer sometime this week. It’s a dark silver metallic in color and has a spot to plug in my I-pod… if… if... I had one.

Today’s blog will be a little bit of a rant. Please do not take it personally… anyone.

A blog is supposed to be a journal. A journal is your own personal space to put your thoughts and feelings. YOUR THOUGHTS and YOUR FEELINGS. I don’t read blogs to read someone else’s point of view, just yours. In fact if someone puts something in their blog, I think it should have come directly from their warped mind. I don’t want to read other peoples thoughts that you agree with or a recent political commentary or news article or anything like that. I read a blog to know you, how you are, and how you feel about certain things. Posting someone else’s comments is easy, but be original! Speak your mind, not someone else’s! Now this does not include those fun little tests about who you are or whatever. Those are just clean fun, and sometimes (well rarely) interesting to read. Also this does not include putting links to others thoughts or opinions. By all means do that! I can ignore links.

Just a few random thoughts from the faceless one,

Q

My "On writing..." Stephen King eat your heart out...

2005-09-23T14:29:00.000-07:00

So here we are again… First things first…

@Nix and Cackler- Yes, I know there is a Battle Royale movie. No, I haven’t seen it. No, I don’t believe it could be anywhere close to the explicit violence and gore in the Manga. It would be the most explicit/violent/goriest film ever made.

On to the business at hand…

As many of you know, I am an aspiring writer. I want to be a published author, and I have many short stories, a novella, and couple of novels in the works. Most of these are unfinished or in-progress works that haven't been touched or worked on in a couple of months. And while I do have some finished works, how many stories do you think I have submitted to be published? One. That’s it. Just a five page short story that was... (sigh) rejected.

So what’s holding me back? What's keeping me from writing, finishing, and submitting my work?
Fear of rejection? Maybe…
Self Doubt? Possibly…
Too much damn City of Heroes? No comment…

The fact of the matter is that… I’m just lazy. Too lazy. So lazy that I don’t call it lazy… I call it writers block. But “Let’s be honest” there is no such thing as writers block. The human mind has hundreds and hundreds of thoughts and ideas flying through your little head every day… hell every hour even. At least one of those thoughts has potential to become something to write about. So really, there are only four reasons people get “writers block:"

1) The aforementioned laziness.
2) Fear
3) Distractions
4) All of the above

So let’s address these issues:
1) Laziness
The fact of the matter is you have to make your own muse, your own inspiration. If you just sit around (watching TV, or surfing the web, or playing City of Heroes, or whatever) waiting for the idea to magically come to you, I got bad news for you. Ain’t gonna happen. If every writer waited for divine inspiration for a story, then Barnes and Noble wouldn’t exist.

Now I’m not saying that there is no such thing as a muse. Far from it. I’m just saying you can’t count on it.

You have to sit in front of the computer (or typewriter for you old-fashioned types) and write. To quote a movie “A writer writes… always” inspired or not. And if you can’t think of what to write or what should happen next… write something else… like a blog.

2) Fear

Fear can be many things. Here are some common ones:

a. Fear of rejection.
b. Fear the story is going to change from what you originally envisioned it to be.
c. Fear of that you aren’t talented enough
d. Fear of spiders (there could be one on your keyboard)

There are many more, but I won’t get into them because these are the important ones (except for maybe the spider thing). And here is the way to overcome them:

a. Get over yourself, and write! The worst that could happen is you are going to get a note mailed to you that says “No thank you.” You know what you do then? You pick up your shattered ego and send the writing somewhere else. Also don’t be afraid to send the story out just because you aren’t sure where to send it. Your stories are never going to be published if they are sitting in your computer waiting for you to decide which magazine you rather get a rejection letter from this time.

b. Get over yourself, and write! You can always change it back to the way it was if you don’t like it.

c. Get over yourself, and write! Sure there are hundreds of aspiring writers, some of which are much better than you are. But, guess what? They most likely suffer from the same anxiety as you do. If you get off your butt and get it done before they do, then you are more likely to be published then the depressed beatnik genius who sulks in the corner all day. Also the more you write the better and more talented you will become. Just like anything else, practice makes perfect.

d. Rolled up newspaper.

3) Distractions

This one is easy. Turn off the damn TV! Stop playing the damn Video Games! Write, dammit write!

4) All of the above.

If you suffer from a combination of these “writers’ blocks” then I have one final opinion to hand out to you (because these are all just the opinions of someone who can’t take his own advice). You control how you write, how frequently you write, and what you write about. No one else. You! Not your Mom or your Aunt Tilly. You!!! And while you can’t control if anyone gives a damn to buy your work, you can increase your odds that it may happen by writing and submitting as much as you can.

So… why are you still reading this?! Write!

Q

P.S. If you are still reading this, I do recommend you read "On Writing" by Stephen King and "How to write Science Fiction/Fantasy" by Orson Scott Card

Titles are overrrated

2005-09-22T18:03:00.000-07:00

Is it possible that I could be back to updating my blog regularly? Maybe…

I went to Borders on my lunch today, as I do everyday. It’s become routine. Eat then go to Borders, eat then go to borders… You know kinda like “Rinse, Lather, Repeat.”

Anyway, I always head to the comic section first to see if I missed anything from two weeks ago (cause they are just now getting it in… and in waves at that) then I head to the magazines to see if the latest issues of Play, EGM, Wizard, Toyfare, etc has come out. Then I head to the Manga section then the Drawing and Writing sections, again to see if anything interesting came out. Today my day stopped at the Manga section, where I noticed the majority of the Battle Royale books had been unwrapped.

For those of you that don’t know what Battle Royale is, it is an extremely ultra ULTRA violent manga that is labeled M for mature and wrapped in cellophane so little childrens aren’t scarred for life if they should see it.

I had heard of it but never read it. So being the mature, open minded person I am I picked it up and started flipping through it. I now know what the above statements truely mean. ULTRA Violent, Mature, and Childrens scarred for life.

If you think you are a gore-freak and that kind of extreme stuff can’t bother you… you haven’t read Battle Royale.

If you think you are Mature enough to handle anything... you haven’t read Battle Royale.

If you want to be scarred for life… by all means read Battle Royale.

What I read today disturbed me. Very, very much. Nothing I’ve seen holds a candle to the blood and violence in Battle Royale. I can’t imagine if this book was in color. This isn’t to say it’s bad… it’s just very extreme. Four hours later, I’m still thinking of the images I saw in that book. Wow…

And we just had an earthquake…

Later!

Q

No title, just update

2005-09-21T15:46:00.000-07:00

Hey there everyone. How ya been? Good good, glad to here it. Me? Well, I’m better than I was I few days ago.

I first want to apologize for not really keeping touch. I’m sure many of you have noticed that I don’t reply to blogs or go on the AIM very much anymore. Only once in a great while it seems. There are reasons for that, and none of it is anyone’s fault but my own. I’m going to try and rectify that situation.

And now for things I should have said earlier…

@Scott- I hope your brother is doing better.

@Steve- I am confident you will land on your feet again.

@Len- Don’t let an uncertainty of where to send completely stop you from submitting altogether

@Dave- I feel like I’ve been totally blowing you off, and I’m sorry.

Anyway, about me. Things as they are now it looks like I’ll be coming back to Missouri for a visit in mid-late October. I don’t know how much time I’ll have to visit… if I really do come this time. Third times a charm I guess. The trip will be split between Cape, Lou and Chi-Town. Most of the time will be split between Cape (Moving) and Chi-town (Family), but I’m going to make time for at least one day in Lou.

My one year in LA is coming up pretty soon. What have I accomplished? Nothing. I have a job I (now) like but pays shitty, a family driving me insane, and no friends. Good use of time.

Well, more about me later… I have to go at the moment.

Laters,

Q

Ignore me...

2005-09-20T18:24:00.000-07:00

I'm alive... some of you knew that...

2005-09-11T02:27:00.000-07:00

It's currently 2:30 am here in California. Most of you reading this are 2 hours ahead of me. I can't sleep. I couldn't think of anything else to do.

I don't watch TV anymore. There is never anything I find remotely interesting on. That may change here in a month or two when cartoon network starts Full Metal Alchemist and Ghost in the Shell again. And JLU, can't forget that. But still that's 1 and 1/2 hours a week at most. My PS2 and Gamecube are currently disconnected and have been since June. Again nothing there interests me... though I may buy that new Jaws game that is coming out soon. So what have I been doing with my time? I don't go out. I have no friends. I sit here in front of this fucking (pardon my language) computer all day playing City of Heroes. That's it.

For those of you thinking about getting into a Massive Multiplayer Online RPG... don't. I thought I was strong enough to fight the addiction. That it wouldn't happen to me. I was wrong. Very, very wrong. I think about the game all the time. It calls to me, beckons me to play. It's claws are firmly entrenched into me... It consumes my time and my thoughts. And the worst part about it is I don't really care. I enjoy it. It's fun. I feel like a fucking smack addict and I wouldn't have it any other way. I'd rather sit here and play then go places with my family (if you knew my family {here in California} you wouldn't blame me). If they manage to drag me away from the computer for 5 minutes I spend those 5 minutes trying figure out a way to get back to the game or think about what I'm going to do when I get back to playing. I am a MMORPG addict. City of Heroes is my crack. It's to the point (and some of you will realize how bad I've gotten because of this statement) I have not bought the 2 newest Lupin the 3rd DVD's. My favorite show/anime/movie/whatever has taken a back seat because I can't make time to buy them and watch them. Shit...

On top of that, in the game I'm in a pickle as well. The 2 people I play with most in the game... my 2 best game friends I have made, think I'm a girl. Why? I have no idea. Well, that's not true. While it is true I play both male and female characters, I tend to play the female characters more. A lot more. In fact I haven't touched a male character in a couple of month's. BUT I do not act like a girl. I act like myself. I talk about comics and movies and whatever else I normally talk about.
But since I never ever give out any personal information (for obvious reasons) I tend to have cases of mistake identity. My name and my gender I have only told one person in the game. A "Friend" who also thought I was a girl, and I corrected this person on it. That person promptly never spoke to me again. Which sucks cause I enjoyed playing the game with this person. So now I have these two great game friends (One I who know is a girl and one I'm not sure) who think I'm a girl and I'm terrified to correct them for fear they won't want to play with me anymore.
And I know your thinking, just don't tell them. How could they find out. Well, they want me to start doing teamspeak (where you talk to each other instead of typing). And one of them lives in LA. It's only a matter of time before she says, "Hey lets meet up." Then I'm really screwed.
I feel like I'm stuck in a little white lie that I didn't create. I don't know what to do...

Geez, getting all worked up over this stupid trivial shit.

In other news...

I got promoted at work. Yay me.

I'm thinking about buying a new car. Looking at a 2006 Pontiac Vibe.

And I'm finally getting sleepy... goodnight.

Q

So… yeah… I’m really damn late… Sue me…

2005-07-12T17:19:00.000-07:00

I was planning on posting on my Birthday as you can see from the Samurai picture below, but I didn’t. Why you ask? Because I was focusing my writing talents elsewhere. If you recall I issued a challenge to Len a month ago. The deadline for the challenge is today and did I make it?
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Yes I did! Hoo Ha!
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Well, sort of…

The challenge was to have 3 stories done by today. I finished 2 and ½ of another. The reason for this is one story is turning out to be way longer than expected. It was originally supposed to be only around 10 pages long. It is currently 23 pages long and I haven’t even introduced the second main character yet.

The first story, “A man walks into a bar…” was almost complete when the challenge was issued. It’s about 10 pages long.

I then began work on “Solar” (working title) which like I said is turning out to be a pretty long short story. In fact it is the longest short story I have ever written, and it’s only half done.

I was stuck on the third until I went to bed last night. I had an idea right before I went to sleep. I liked it so I wrote it down. This morning more ideas grew from that original, so I had to sit down and write it out. I wrote the entire 10 page story in 3 hours. (That is really damn fast for me). I like it a lot and if you want to read it, let me know.

Anyway. There it is! Challenge met in my mind.

Other news with Q…

July 2nd was my birthday. I worked. It was boring. Thanks to everyone who sent me a card! I really appreciate it! :)

My editing teacher got a job on a movie, so class was canceled last week. We had a new teacher starting last night. The class is going good. I enjoy it but I hope it’s not a waste of my time and money. It seems if you want to be an editor you have to own your own Mac. I like Macs, I just can’t afford one.

Things aren’t really that better here, and I’m seriously thinking of moving if I don’t find a better job. Where would I go? Chicago most likely. Maybe back to St. Lou. For Cape is not an option. I need to find work doing what I enjoy. Be it writing or working in the entertainment of some sort. I’m still debating what to do.

I read 5 novels in the span of 2 and ½ weeks. I read fast but that is really fast for me. All five were written by Greg Rucka, and containing the same cast of characters. They are (in chronological order) Keeper, Finder, Smoker, Shooting at Midnight, and Critical Space. You can find them at Borders and they are fantastic. Read then in order though.

I’m going to San Diego this weekend for the San Diego Comic Con. I’m leaving on Sat. and staying till Sunday. I’ll be sleeping in my van like a bum, because this is so last minute I can’t get a hotel. But I figure it’s worth it. Every comic creator in the world save a few will be there. I’m really excited!

Still playing City of Heroes. My characters are getting pretty high in level.

In other news…

Happy Birthday Len! Happy Anniversary Steve and Heather!

I think that’s about it!

Drop me a line,

Q

Long Blog tomorrow

2005-07-01T21:33:00.000-07:00

In the words of Mel Gibson... FREEEEEEEDOOOOOM!

2005-06-21T13:31:00.000-07:00

Hiya!

As the title implies I am free. The day I knew would come has come. I have moved out of my Father’s house and into my Grandparent’s home. Yay! A huge amount of weight has been lifted from my shoulders and a great stress has been released from my mind. I’m happy as a clam, in case you can’t tell.

So what happened, you may be asking. Well, it’s a long story that basically boils down to my Father being an immature so and so. He called me as I was on my way home Friday and says “You need to pack your stuff and move to Grandma’s. It’s nothing you did wrong, but you need to go.” I was like “Oookay?” but I did what I was told, I packed all my clothes and lugged them to my Grandparents house. I left the majority of my stuff there, in the vague hope that this would blow over in a day or two like it usually does. While packing I witnessed the stupidest fight/argument in the world between my Father and Step-mother. This argument could have been avoided if my Father had a maturity level over the age of five. (Somehow I got mixed into the argument, in where he said “Why don’t you just go back to Missouri.”) Anyway, I left expecting to be back a couple of days. Why I wanted to go back is now a mystery to me.

Two days pass. It was now Sunday/Father’s Day (Ha!). I went out and bought my Dad a gift certificate to his favorite restaurant. He had disappeared for the day going to god knows where, so I drove to his house and dropped it off like a good son. Later that day he shows up at Grandma’s while I was about to head to the movies and see Batman Begins (BTW GO SEE BATMAN BEGINS! BEST BATMAN EVER!). I asked him if he got his gift. The following is a reenactment of what happened next.

Dad- Yeah, I got it. I don’t want it.
Question- Wha?
D- Don’t give me that shit. I’m not your father.
Q- Huh?
D- Your father is out in Missouri or whatever (He is referring to my Step-dad I assume). I’m not your dad, never was. So just cut it out.
Q- Gee, that makes me feel good. I’m so glad I went out of my way to get you a gift. (I start walking away) Asshole.
(He then proceeds to tell Grandma, what a terrible son I am. How I don’t do anything or listen or whatever. I walk out to the door to go to the movie. Before I do I turn back a yell.)
Q-You need to grow up!
(He then tries to say something back but I had closed the door)

On the way to Batman, I made a decision and made a u-turn. I drove up to my Dad’s house because I knew he wasn’t home, loaded up the rest of my stuff and got the hell out of that hell hole. Then I went to Batman, my van loaded with every material item I hold dear. I convinced Grandma to get Cable internet, which I will be paying for, but it is worth the $30 a month to not have to put up with my Dad. I pity my Step-mother.

So I haven’t truly spoken to him sense, despite the fact he was here most of the day yesterday. He tried to call and apologize, but sorry doesn’t cut it right now. I’ll probably forgive him someday, but it won’t be for a long time I think. That’s because this isn’t the first, second, or even third time he has hurt me. This wound is fresh, and will take a long time to heal I think.

Anyway that’s about it news-wise. Go see Batman if you haven’t.

Q

The Challenge!

2005-06-13T17:04:00.000-07:00

Hiya! (that seems to be my new favorite phrase)

It's Monday, and time for the "Q Report." Things are good and I have some interesting news for everyone.

Over in my good friend Len's blog, I have issued a challenge to see who can get a story published first. The challenge went a little something likea-thisa:

You told me the other day that when I get motivated, you also tend to get motivated. Well, your blog has motivated me... So I hereby issue this challenge to you. This will not be an easy challenge, but maybe it will help both of us. I'm turning the volume up to 11. I'm going to finish 3 of my unfinished short stories by July 12th (one month from yesterday, and Kudos to those of you that know what that date is) I will not give up! I will continue to turn out work! Then I'm going to start submitting again. One after another, and rejections be damned! I challenge you to beat me in a race to get published. First one in print wins.

Eloquently put aye? I'm excited about this! I really am! I'm confident I'll win too (insert trash talk here), LOL. That was a joke. I honestly don't know who will win or if he has even accepted the challenge. We tried this once before, with very lackluster results, but that contest was just to get a story finished in a certain amount of time. This is for the big money (so to speak). You can't honestly call yourself a writer with out having something in print... and to be printed you have to submit... To be published or not to be published that is The Question...

Exciting stuff, huh?

In other news, my film class starts in 2 hours. First one... I'm a little nervous, but excited at the opportunity it will provide me. I'll let you all know how it went laters, maybe tomorrow.

I finally saw Star Wars, and I'm sad to say I'm the stick in the mud. It was okay... not good, not great... just average. I really... just didn't care. Sure there was cool stuff (Yoda fighting Palpatine, Ewan McGregor) but most of the time I spent rolling my eyes at bad dialogue. The movie... it wasn't bad... I... I'll expand on my thoughts later when I have more time I guess...

Just finished a great book called Keeper by Greg Rucka. Awesome, best thing I've read in a very long time. Which surprised me, because people who know me know I hate talking about certain issues, because they always start a fight. I'm not a conflict person. Anyway this book dealt heavily with Abortion... one of those "don't talk about topics." Wow great book. The end was kind of abrupt, but if you start reading the second book in the series Finder, which I already have, you don't really notice. Great for anyone who like Crime-Thriller-Mystery books! Read it today!

I bought the new Full Metal Panic Series Vol. 1 w/ box. Haven't watched it yet but I can't wait!

So ends another blog... Parting is such sweet sorrow...

Is biweekly the way to go?

2005-05-30T11:07:00.000-07:00

Hiya,

It's already been two weeks? Where does the time go?

Anyway I have a few bits for ya if you are interested. I saw a special sneak preview of "Cinderella Man" with Russell Crowe last night. I wasn't expecting to like it, but the movie blew me away. Easily the best movie I have seen in a long while. When Oscar time rolls around this is going to be the movie to beat. It was absolutely fantastic. Great performances, compelling story, great direction = Job well done. If you want to see a great human interest movie with a lot of heart and hope, I would definitely recommend seeing it when it opens Friday.

And before you ask I have NOT seen Star Wars yet. Why? I dunno. I wanna see it, in fact I may go see it tonight if nothing better comes along. But for some reason it just doesn't feel like a priority to me. Maybe it's because, despite what everyone one says, Lucas probably screwed it up again. Oh well, I'll be it eventually. Now Batman, on the other hand! I want to see it now!
And Fantastic Four! I have hope it will be good!

I watched Muppet Wizard of Oz... For those of you that don't know I am a huge Muppet fans. I have loved the Muppets since childhood, and I had hope for this made for TV special. Now I wonder why I bothered. It was boring and unfunny (with the exception of Pepe, h-okay) and a complete waste of the greatness that is Kermit. Plus Ashanti cannot acting to save her life. Every line she said I cringed at her bad delivery.

I found a place called Cinetech that restores and preserves movies (classics like Casablanca and such) and it's right here in the part of CA I live in! Not to far from my house actually. I going there tomorrow to put in a resume. That would be a good job. Wish me luck!

School is getting closer... June 13th Yay!

Len started a blog, Commanding Thoughts. Drop by and say hi to him!

I think that's about it for right now. I might be on later to update again if I think of anything.

See ya,

Q

Well, I has been quite a while hasn't it?

2005-05-15T20:15:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone. Long time no talk. Sorry about that. I've been having some personal issues lately... nothing for you all to worry about though. I'll be okay. I'm a big strong boy... I can handle.

So how have you all been? Everything working out for you? Good, good... glad to hear it. I'd love to here from everyone of you in the comments below. :-)

So what's been up with Q in the past two month's? Well, I'll tell you...

I've made a friend or two. Which is nice, cause now I have someone to talk too at work and such who is around my age. Her name is Menchu, she is from the Philippines where she was a Pop-star and even had a couple hit albums. This girl can sing! We went Kareoke on Friday night and she did this song that blew me away! I asked her why she's working at Princess, and she said it's because she was married and had a kid. She has tried out for American Idol and auditioned for a few labels and they confirmed that she can sing... but she is only 5' tall and about 105 lbs so she doesn't have the "look" they are looking for. Superficial bastards. I'm going to send her demo to my step-dad and see if he can help her out.

We put Kelsey down last month. The tumor on her leg was out of control... that was pretty hard to do. Right before we had to put her down Dad and Colleen got a new puppy, which they named Allison. She's a cutey, though she loves to bite anything. Her little teeth are sharp!

Myself? I've just gone through a "I'm not good enough phase..." where I did nothing but put myself down. Not a good thing to do I know, but it really couldn't be helped. Every picture I drew and every story I started work on, something in my mind always tells me that it's not good enough, and that it will never be good enough. It got to the point where I didn't want to do anything, draw, write, nothing... Luckily that has passed. I called both Steve and Len, who really listened to me and made me feel so much better. Thank you too both of you.

I'm thoroughly sick of my job at Princess. There is only so much abuse one can take from travel agents. Things are looking up though. I officially start film school on June 13. I'm going to start with film editing. It's a 12 week night class. After that I'm going to take a break and go to animation school to improve my skills at drawing. If anyone is interested in the schools the web addresses are nyfa.com and theanimationacademy.com. Both look like great schools! I can't wait. Also on the job front, I'm sending my resume to friend of Colleen's step-moms who works for Warner Brothers. Hopefully between her and Bob, I should be able to switch jobs sooner than later (oh please, oh please).

I haven't touch my PS2 or my Gamecube in months. The main reason is I'm thoroughly addicted to City of Heroes. It's just great fun. I wish I could go to E3 next week... (one thing that makes me wish I was at least still part-time at Best Buy). I want to find out more about a few games coming out. Jaws, The Godfather, City of Villains, FF XII, and Kingdom Hearts 2 are all one my wish list. Also Advent Children is coming out Sept. 19... mark your calendars. >:-)

I'm going to a concert tomorrow called "More Dear Friends," the music of Final Fantasy. Noubu Uematsu, the composer of almost all FF music will be there with his band the Black Mages. I'm really excited and can't wait! I just kind of wish I wasn't going alone.

Let's see... what else... I went to Wizard World LA, that was cool. Met some great people and got some cool sketches in my sketch book. Greg Rucka is the man. (For those of you who don't know, he is a great comic writer. Read Wonder Woman!!!!) I still want to go to Comic Con in San Diego this July... but I'm starting to have doubts to if I will be able make it down there with school and all. We'll see what happens...

I went to a Renaissance Fair today. It was fun, which is normal. It felt weird being there though with my parents instead of the people I went with before. Not that that's a bad thing, just different. The last one I went to was in St. Louis last year. That one was great fun... but this one was like twice that size. I think I liked the St.Louis one better, cause everyone was really in character and the separate sections were very unique (Pirate Land, Fairy Land, etc), and this one wasn't quite that detailed... just bigger. I tried axe throwing and I got two of them to stick in the target. Cool Beans.

"Yet to be named..." will return. I'm trying to find my consistent art style, that will work for the strip. I really enjoyed making them, but they will have to go on hiatus for a while I think... That may change though.

And now for Individual shout-outs...

@Quill- Thank You

@Len- Thanks You and Entropy notes are coming soon...

@Scott- No worries man...

@Cackling Chris- Shine on you crazy diamond.

@Rocky- I'll see you in Paragon

@Nix- Sorry, I've been flakey. I'm thinking about getting Netflix again so I can get the movies to review with you.

@ Everyone else- I miss you all!

So that's about it... Long update I know, but what do you want for 2 month's worth of news?

Comments are appreciated.

Laters,

2005-05-09T20:19:00.000-07:00

The smoke is clearing... I shall return soon...

2005-03-11T11:35:00.000-08:00

Sorry no Comics Strip this week. A lot of stuff is going on and work has been unsually busy. Hope this tides you over.

News and The Weekly Comic... Which is better? Don't answer that...

2005-03-02T20:39:00.000-08:00

So here we are again. I got some news for you and I have the weekly comic strip.

Q'd News: I swear I live in Disasterville USA. If we have anymore rain this whole state is going to turn into one big mud ball. There was a mudslide 3 blocks from my house that covered the street that I use to get work. So that was a pain. All we need right now is one well placed earthquake and the whole state will break off from the rest of the country and become the newest Hawaiian island. I don't even want to think about the fires that are coming this summer... ugh.

Still no word on the job hunt. I keep applying, but have received no replies. Bummer.

I hope you guys like the pictures I have been doing. I like them very much, and I think I'm getting better. Coolness.

I just got the game City of Heroes and I am trying not to become an addict. I have made 4 Heroes so far so if you play, look me up! I play as Cybergeist, Luminate, Mr. Miracleblade (Len made this one up, but it's damn cool) and my newest character Electric Vinyl.

Well, that's about it for right now. Just know that I'm happy as a clam. I got 2 new Lupin the 3rd DVD's and a Liberty Meadows Hardcover collection. Happy Happy!

I know you've been waiting for it... so here it is

@ Corey, I'm going to use the hospital ideas starting this weekend or next week.

@ Len, Since you named the strip, I want you to help me write your walk on role.

@ Scott, I was trying to do a BrainShift logo on your shirt, but it came out really crappy. Sorry.

Well, till next time
Love, Luck, and Lollipops (10 points to the person who guesses where that reference is from. Len you don't count)

Q

2005-02-28T22:55:00.000-08:00

Zatanna By Q

2005-02-26T14:06:00.000-08:00

A new picture. I like it. What do you think?

Comic Strip 4 and News

2005-02-23T19:36:00.000-08:00

So here is Comic Strip 4... Hope everyone likes it.

Q'd News: Our other sick dog, Kelsey, broke her leg. The bone cancer has eaten away at it so much that it just snapped. So they are either going to have to amputate it off or put Kelsey down. This is a really hard decision for my parents to make. I'm not sure what they are going to do. Kelsey is such a trooper too. Honestly, if she wasn't limping, you wouldn't think that there was anything wrong with her. She still runs and plays without a care in the world. She doesn't act sick in the least... which is making the decision even harder to make.

I applied for a bunch of jobs yesterday. Miramax, Disney, G4, Toykopop... just to name a few. I kind of hope I hear from them soon. The travel agents are really started to wear me thin at Princess. One of the jobs I applied for was Marketing Coordinator for the Muppets. That would be frickin' SWEET. I would love to work with the Muppets! I love the Muppets and always have. Jim Henson was a genius! God... Please let them call me for this job! I want... I need... gimme gimme...!

Anywho, enough about me. The real reason you are here... is...
Yet To Be Named...

Thanks for visiting! Let me know what you think in the comments below!

Q

The Femme Fatale

2005-02-22T21:29:00.000-08:00

Here are two new pictures. I'm really beginning to see an improvement in my work! The picture of the guy was a request by my friend Corey. He wanted a caricature of himself with big muscles and big guns. I'd never drawn either of those before, and thought it would be a good challenge. I'm proud of the way the picture turned out. Corey really liked it too.

@ Mad Cackler--- I need you to teach me how to draw guns! I tried my best and it still looks a little awkward.

The second picture I drew today and thought it was also damn good! I named this one Ninja Girl, for obvious reasons and because I'm terrible at naming things. Hence the COMIC STRIP NAMING CONTEST that no one has submitted a single name!... Anyway back to the picture. I think I'm getting the shading thing a little better, but the hands and feet still need work. Overall though I think these are my best pictures yet. Let me know what you think in the comments below.

Tomorrow is a new Comic Strip, and a full life of Q update... which you can probably skip and go straight to the comic strip.
Q

The Big Man!

2005-02-22T21:26:00.000-08:00

2005-02-20T11:00:00.000-08:00

My first attempt at drawing a woman. I think the skirt looks really good, and the wrinkles in the shirt and leg stockings. I like the design of the hair though it looks a little too flat. Things I really need to work on are hands, feet, and shading. Let me know what you think, so I can figure out what I need practice with. Thanks.

Fun and Drawrings... (Yes I know I spelled it Drawrings)

2005-02-17T21:49:00.000-08:00

I hope you all enjoyed the newest comic strip, there should be another new one in a couple of days. If you haven't seen Comic Strip 3 yet scroll down a bit to the previous post.

Q'ed News: Um... um... hold on... um... There has to be something... um... Thinking.... (sniff, sniff) What's that smell? Is that me? ... um... I must be really damn boring not to have anything to report in over a week... oh well, on to the fun stuff!!!

This Cartoon is funny as hell! If you read comics, or ever have read comics (especially X-men) you will find this frickin' hilarious!!! Watch the Flash Cartoon X-men: Death becomes them. And the funniest part about this cartoon... EVERYTHING THEY SAY IS TRUE AND DID HAPPEN IN THE COMIC RECENTLY!

This is a neat little survey-type thing that was making it's way around my friends blogs recently, and I'm just now getting around to putting my answers up:
x the things that you have done before, and repost.

(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city/state
(x) saw a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states
(x) had surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) done drugs
(x) had alcohol
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) made out in an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
( ) kicked a guy where it hurts.
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
(x) broken a bone
( ) been high
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
(x) flashed someone
(x) saw a therapist
( ) done the splits
( ) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
(x) had an IV
(x) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
(x) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan (Dammit!)
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(x) stole something from your job
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) saw someone die
( ) been to Africa
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day
(x) Been to Canada
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi (Damn skippy!)
( ) Been snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) Been moshing at a rock show
( ) Been to a moto cross show
( ) lost a child
(x) gone to college
(x) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
( ) Threw up on a roller coaster
(x) Bored?

This is my first attempt at drawing a full body in an action pose. I think it's decent for a first attempt, but looking at it now I see a few problems. Anyway, let me know what you think.

Q

2005-02-15T21:25:00.000-08:00

Comic strip three, is here and on time this week! Please hold your applause until the end of the blog. Thanks to all who have commented here on the blog (I appreciate it, plus it lets me know you have seen the strip so I will stop pestering you on the IM). Please continue with the comments, and name suggestions! Here is the contest... The person who comes up with the best name wins a walk on roll in the strip and ... wait for it... A dollar! That's right! One Whole Dollar! Why you could almost buy a candy bar with that! Start those brains-a-thinking and win cold hard cash!

2005-02-10T21:40:00.000-08:00

Comic strip 2 as promised! Still doesn't have a name, but only one person has come to me with suggestions... What do I have to do? Make a contest or something? Also I really do like to hear from you and what your thoughts are so please comment by clicking comment below. Even if it is anonymously... Thank You

Goodbye my friend...

2005-02-08T21:20:00.000-08:00

Alexandra 1991-2005

Last night Alex started having trouble breathing. Dad and Colleen tried to rush her to the Vet emergency... but it was too late. She died in the car, I found out this morning. We have had her since she was a puppy and now she's gone... her bed is empty and will be forever. I loved her very much. I remember the times we took trips to the beach or went camping. I remember how she would walk up and put her paw on my leg when she wanted to be pet. I remember how whenever I came out here to visit... she was the first one to the door to say hi. And when I left to go back to Missouri, she knew and I could tell she was sad. I loved her so much.

I still went to work today but my heart wasn't in it. I also didn't work on the comic strip... sorry. I'll try to have it done by Thursday.

In other news, welcome home from Iraq to my friend Shark. I read the news article on the net. I'll send you an e-mail soon.

I got my first rejection letter. I story I sent out 2 weeks ago was rejected... oh well it was just the first submit... so I just have to send it out to someone else.

Sorry there is not more... but I'm not really in the mood

Q

2005-02-06T22:04:00.000-08:00

Drew this today. Really liked it. I'm going to update the blog tomarrow and hopefully post a new comic strip on Wed. I'm going to try my best to make it a weekly strip. See ya tomarrow!

Fun Funny Stuff and a Comic Strip...

2005-02-02T21:59:00.000-08:00

Hey Everyone, I decided to update the blog with some fun stuff and add some humor to it... and a special treat. My first comic strip is posted at the end of this entry...

The first bit of humor is a link to the Neorotically Yours Flash cartoon series. I saw this on a friend of mines blog and decided to post it here as well. This particular cartoon had me rolling on the floor. You will never look at Tech support the same again... also if you are offended by strong language... why the fuck are you here anyway? ILLWILLPress

The Second bit of funny stuff is this "You know you are addicted to anime when..." list. Must admit I'm a guilty of a few of these.

You Know You Are Addicted To Anime When...

You perform a canon ball dive into a pool while yelling "Spirit Bomb!" (Quill)

Your house has an anime room.

You and your friends flash peace signs and take girlish poses when you are happy.

You get an anime tattoo... even though you're scared of needles.

Your walls are covered in wallscrolls and posters from your favorite series.

If you use the term 'Kawaii' for describing everything.

You try to convince your girlfriend that 'cat ears' and 'tail' really looks good on them.

You can sing songs from your favorite shows, in Japanese, even though you don't speak Japanese... (Guilty)

You have legally changed your name to that of your favorite character.

You wear a necklace and fall down every time someone says sit boy.

You insist on having an entrance that includes spotlights, music, and raining cherry blossoms (while you hold a rose if you're a guy).

Your only dream is to attend Tokyo U with a girl you haven't seen in 15 years.

If you have named a pet after an anime character (Guilty)

For Valentine's day you buy a stuffed dog and make up your own Japanese name for it

If you get mad at you teacher and draw a picture of her as a anime demon cat

You watch Iron Chef constantly to pick up great recipes (Guilty)

You always have your hair covering your left eye and always flipping it so you look like a anime character.

You think that falling flat on your back with your legs in the air is a normal reaction to big news.

You are worried because you don't have several desirable members of the opposite sex frantically trying to make you fall in love with them. (Guilty hee hee...)

You go around town trying to eat donuts and act all crazy-like, all the while saying you're Vash the Stampede.

To resolve a conflict, you insist in a duel.

The employees at Gamestop know you, and tell you when you walk in if they've gotten a new shipment of anime DVDs.

You've gotten angry at someone and placed two fingers on your forehead shouted the word "Makanekasopo!" (special beam cannon or light of death) and then poked them in the eye. (Len)

You waste countless amounts of hair gel to get that "Goku look" (Quill)

You map out points in Tokyo where the Dragons of Earth might attack

You believe it is possible for a person to be severely beaten in the head with a large hammer, stick, etc...and still come out alive.

You have a moment of confusion whenever you go to school because there are no girls in those tiny little skirts that come with their school uniform

You tell your parents you need to stay out past curfew to save the colonies.

Each time you see a stray animal, you turn your hat sideways and throw one of those plastic Pokeballs Burger King was giving out in their kids' meals yelling, "POKEBALL, GO!" (Dave)

The majority of your CDs are Japanese or the English version of a Japanese soundtrack or the English soundtrack of an anime that just decided that it would use English in its songs. (Len)

You misplace your manga and someone at school you don't even know gives it to you saying they knew it was yours.

You incorporate Japanese, somehow, into every class.

You use random Japanese words such as baka, kawaii, and hentai. (Guilty)

You try to read every book from right to left (guilty)

You take a break from watching anime to go to your computer (nicknamed Lord Conti) to download anime (for previewing purposes only! ;) ), while visiting your favorite anime forum, while listening to Japanese webradio... etc

You call your parents Oka-san and Otou-san

You say ITADAKIMASU!! before you eat your meals (guilty)

You insist on chopsticks for everyday use.

Your bookshelf is filled with anime boxed sets and no books

You stop listening to the radio because English makes no sense to you anymore and it's your first spoken language

You call yourself "otaku."

All of your family portraits have been altered to the proper super large eye size.

Random battles seem to erupt wherever you go.

Your dreams are animated.

You hold your eyes really wide all day trying to make them stay big

You run out of space on your computer because the hard drive is taken up by hundreds of anime pics, mp3s, midis, and music videos. (Chris!)

You expect to see a teardrop over someone's head when they get embarrassed.

You start to speak with an odd accent. (guilty)

You can watch two animes in the same room at the same time and still have the TV off.

ou know your favorite character's bloodtype.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to anime.

Okay, and now what you have all been waiting for. The yet to be titled comic strip!
Today's blog was brought to you by the letter C and the number 5. Funding provided by Viewers like You...

2005-02-02T21:09:00.000-08:00

The Yet To Be Named Comic Strip...

Frustrated about nominations...

2005-01-30T21:28:00.000-08:00

Frustrated...

Wow, I kept my promise and updated again within three days. For those of you who aren't used to this and didn't get a chance to read my post from a few days ago, feel free to scroll down and read the GREAT, IMPORTANT, and FUN news. There is some interesting and IMPORTANT stuff in there!

Anyway, on to the reason of my posting (and the above frustrated cat/person thing above). The oscar nominations have recently been announced and it is time for Q's picking apart of the nominees...

The First Category under examination is Best Supporting Actress:
Cate Blanchett - The Aviator
Laura Linney - Kinsey
Virginia Madsen - Sideways
Sophie Okonedo - Hotel Rwanda
Natalie Portman - Closer

Okay, not usually a big category for me, but I have to say that Cate Blanchett was Katherine Hepburn in The Aviator. She sounded and acted in such a perfect duplication of Katherine Hepburn, that I forgot that she wasn't really Katherine Hepburn. That's amazing to me. The other four... um... yeah I don't really care.

ACTOR IN A SUPPORTING ROLE
Alan Alda - The Aviator
Thomas Haden Church - Sideways
Jamie Foxx - Collateral
Morgan Freeman - Million Dollar Baby
Clive Owen - Closer

Alan Alda? Wow. He was really good, but best supporting actor? Haven't seen Sideways, but I will before the Oscars... so I can't really say anything against Thomas Haden Church. Jamie Foxx... Okay I like Collateral. I like Collateral VERY VERY much, but if there is one actor who should have been nominated for anything from that movie it's Tom Cruise. Morgan Freeman was great in Million Dollar Baby, but it wasn't any different than the roles he's been playing for the past ten years. Not saying that's a bad thing, far from it. I believe Morgan Freeman is one of the greatest actors alive today and deserves a potato award (now that you mention it...). I also would have liked to see David Carradine for Kill Bill Vol. 2 on this list as well...

ACTRESS IN A LEADING ROLE
Annette Bening - Being Julia
Catalina Sandino Moreno - Maria Full of Grace
Imelda Staunton - Vera Drake
Hilary Swank - Million Dollar Baby
Kate Winslet - Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Again the category that stumps me every year, because I hardly ever see all the movies represented. This year I have seen two of the films. Hilary Swank was good in MDB, but I have to go with Kate Winslet. She did a damn good job. Speaking of the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, that brings us too...

ACTOR IN A LEADING ROLE
Don Cheadle - Hotel Rwanda
Johnny Depp - Finding Neverland
Leonardo DiCaprio - The Aviator
Clint Eastwood - Million Dollar Baby
Jamie Foxx - Ray

WHERE THE F**K IS JIM CARREY!?!?!?!?!?!? I mean come on! Nominate the man. He has given one of the best performance of his career in Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind, but yet again he gets snubbed. First Truman Show, then Man on the Moon, now this... grrrrr. As good as Kate Winslet was in the movie Carrey was even better... and if she was nominated he should have been too. Sorry, had to rant. I think this is a tight race is between Leo and Foxx actually. Both gave absolutely great performances and I honestly can't decide who I want to win. Clint Eastwood was good in MDB, but again not any different from any other performance he has given in the past ten years. That spot should have been Carrey's. Damn academy.

DIRECTING
Martin Scorsese - The Aviator
Clint Eastwood - Million Dollar Baby
Taylor Hackford - Ray
Alexander Payne - Sideways
Mike Leigh - Vera Drake

Give it to Scorsese... the Aviator was the best film of the year and the man has more than earned it...

BEST PICTURE
The Aviator
Finding Neverland
Million Dollar Baby
Ray
Sideways

What did I just just say... that answers that.

So there you have it. Another year, another couple of snubbs for some worthy actors. Can't say I'm surprised, cause I'm not.

Your Thoughts?

Q

2005-01-27T21:35:00.000-08:00

Hey There!

How is everyone doing today? I have a whole heck of a lot of news I thought I would share with everyone. To start with, I am alive and well despite the non updates.

So to make things simple here is a numerical list of what's new with Q...

1) I have taken up drawing in a manga style (in case you couldn't tell by the above picture. Yes I drew it) I think I'm getting better. I drew this one today and it is heads above tails better than the ones I drew last week. If you want to see more catch me on the IM. I'm not very good yet, but I will keep practicing.

2) The BIG BIG news. I sent in a story submission. Yes you heard that right, after years of procrastinating, I actually sent in a story to try to become a published author. Yay me! It's a short story a few of you have read called Together. I sent it to The Magazine of Fantasy and Science Fiction. So keep your fingers crossed for me, I should hear back from them in 4 to 8 weeks.

3) Work is good, boring but good. It gets on my nerves to hear people bitch about how their cruise isn't the way it is supposed to be, but that's my job. For now at least. At least when they start complaining I can just tune them out and work on my drawings.

4) Bad news, two of our three dogs are very very sick. Kelsey has bone cancer, and Alex has something blocking her throat that may be a tumor as well. I'm not sure how much longer they are going to last, but I'm trying to make the most of the time we have left with them.

@Quill: I have no clue when I will be able to come to St. Louis again, I can tell you I won't have vacation time until at least June.

@Scott: Thanks for the song! I listen to it almost everyday.

@Mad Cackler: Tell the rest of those fools at the Anime Party to come and send me their e-mails so I can keep in touch with them!

@Len: The Yellow Dart is a cool nickname!

So, everyone have a good night... cause I am out of here!

Your pal,

Q

Happy New Year!

2005-01-03T00:14:00.001-08:00

Happy New Year! What are your resolutions? Here are mine:

1: Lose Weight (Same shit, different year)

2: Get published or at least submit something to be published...

3: Figure out if Cali is right for me... because I'm beginning to have doubts...

Why am I having doubts? I'm not quite sure... It's not the new job because I like it just fine. It's just everyone is so damn busy and rushed out here I guess. Maybe it's also because I miss my brother and sisters so much. I just don't see myself living here in 5 years... hell maybe not even two years. I do want to get my schooling done (and started), try to advance to a better position at Princess (which will take at least six month's), and get a short story or too looked at... but overall do I want to live here? I've been here a little over 2 months.

I'm just afraid this place will change me... and I don't like that... I like me. Sure I'm not always happy with my weight or other physical parts of myself... but overall I like me and I'm happy. Then I see my Dad who is miserable, totally and utterly. To him everything sucks. Life sucks, this sucks, that sucks... and I'm afraid I'll turn into that. I don't want that to happen.

Anyway Happy New Year! Hopefully 2005 will start better that 2004 ended. I send my thoughts and prayers to the people and family's in Asia.

Your Friend,

P.S. Q recommends that you read Identity Crisis when it comes out in trade paperback. If you know anything about the DCU it will rock your fragile mind...

Dan's Loot

2004-12-26T23:48:00.000-08:00

Merry day after Christmas everyone!

As promised here is my loot list:

Gameboy SP
Kingdom Hearts Chain of Memories
Mickey Mouse B&W Vol. 2
LOTR: Return of the King Extended Edition
Rupan the 3rd: The Fuma Conspiracy
Scene It Board game TCM edition
Money
A short story and novel writers market
Clothes
Ron White: They call me Tater Salad DVD
#1 Brother pen
Deck of Cards
Manga books
More Clothes

That's about it...

Hope you all had a great day! One week till 2005!

Q

Merry Christmas!

2004-12-25T11:26:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone!

I miss you all and wish you a great and Happy Christmas! May the love of the season reach you and your family!

Sincerely,

Q

P.S. I will do a full update on Sunday, complete with a list of what I recieved this year. Feel free to post your loot list here as well. Again Merry Christmas!

I can't remember the last time I updated

2004-12-10T23:22:00.000-08:00

Hi Everyone!

Sorry I haven’t updated in a long while, I’ve been very busy.

I found a new job with Princess Cruises. It’s full time with full benefits (Health, Vision, and Dental)! Very Cool, plus free cruises. I’m still going to look for a job in the entertainment industry though. I WILL NOT GIVE UP! I WILL SUCCEED!

Anyway, I realized tonight just how lonely I am. I have no friends within 600 miles or more. It really makes you feel alone. I miss everyone a lot

I’m quitting Best Buy. I thought I could stick it out till after Christmas, but I am just sick of it. This is by far the worst store I have ever been in. It is so unorganized it’s disgusting. Plus, my supervisor is a f**king jerk-store. I think I hate him, and I don’t hate anyone really. Before I quit I must abuse the sweet discount… hee hee hee….

Well that’s about it. I’m going to try and update more often.

Your Friend,

Q

Q Recommends: Dodgeball the Movie… Huh? I kid you not. This movie had me rolling in the aisles. Rip Torn’s dialogue alone will have you on the floor! “You’re about as useful as a c**k flavored lollipop!”

Happy Thanksgiving... What? It was yesterday?

2004-11-26T21:54:00.000-08:00

Happy Belated Thanksgiving everyone! I wish I could have hung out or at least said Hi to each of you yesterday. I figured I am long overdue for a life update so here it is...

I am definitely going to film school! Starting in January with Screenwriting then moving on to Editing. I went an open house for the school and it seems really intense, but am excited about it! Um... that's about it on that front.

On the job front, I have been hired at Best Buy again. Should be starting any day now. Waiting for them to say my drug test was cool (which if it isn't, some dirty crack fiend must have switched samples with me.) Also I have applied numerous other places, including Princess Cruises, and several movie and TV studios. I am confident I will be hearing from them soon! (fingers crossed)

I have a "car" now. It my Grandparent's van but beggars can't be choosers. The people out here drive like psychopaths, and the freeways are scary... dude you have no idea.

I started my Movie Review web-page again. The Reel World. I missed it and figured it was overdue for a return. If anyone wants to check it out the URL is http://reelworld0.tripod.com. Come and visit and let me know what you think. There is a major update coming for it soon.

Well, that's about it. I miss my friends.
I'm trying not to let my family drive me insane.
I can't find the SU's in Mortal Kombat Deception (as far as I can tell, no one on the internet has either. Some people claim to have but I think they are full of it)

Sincerely,

Q recommends you visit The Reel World, and go see The Incredibles if you haven't already.

So it begins...

2004-11-15T14:35:00.000-08:00

Well, I have officially started my job hunt. I've sent out about 22 resumes and completed two interviews already. One was with a company called Concorde which does P.R. for advertisers and the second was Universal Studios (the park, not the movie studio unfortunately). Both went well and I know I got the Universal job if I want it... but do I want it is the question. It's not really a career and it is a bit of a drive... plus I would be making less than I did at Best Buy (ugh). I think I'm going to pass on it.

Gasoline is $2.45 here! Ouch, makes me glad I don't own a car... yet. Went looking the other day, saw a 2005 Chevy Malibu that was nice. Fully loaded and with Grandpa's discount I could get it for about $9,000. Not bad for a $18,000 car.

I got my film school packet in the mail, outlining the classes and the costs. I'm thinking about taking Screen-writing and Editing or maybe the full year filmmaking course. The filmmaking class is $24,000 for one year though! That's how much it cost for me to go to SEMO for FIVE! I knew it was going to be expensive... but DAMN! Well, Grandma offered to pay for it and (I'm not sure but) I think they are loaded with cash... at least I hope so. Grandma has the book right now, we are going to go over it together tomorrow

Well, that's about it for right now. Sorry it took me so long to update

Q. Recommends you read Identity Crisis from DC comics. It's that damn good...

I'm baaaaaack.....

2004-11-07T15:11:00.000-08:00

Well, I’m back from my cruise and here is the breakdown of what I did…

Saturday: Left San Pedro, CA. Ate food, went to a show. Later that night sang Karaoke… did okay I guess.

Sunday: Went in the spa… very nice. Played in the Blackjack tournament and lost. Ate some more and saw a Comedian who was very funny. Later on went to the night club, but didn’t dance.

Monday: Worked out and went swimming in the Pool, Played in the slot machine tournament and lost, Ate some more, saw a show call Piano Man. It was okay

Tuesday: Landed at Puerto Vallarta. Went on a tour… kind of boring. Ate more, went swimming. Participated in the Mr. Diamond Princess Competition, and did the Chicken dance while half-naked. Probably the most embarrassing thing I have ever done, but people seemed to like it. The whole rest of the cruise I had people tell me they didn’t recognize me with my clothes on.

Wednesday: Landed at Mazatlan, I chose to stay on the ship and just relax, play bingo, etc. Partied at the club late at night

Thursday: Landed in Cabo San Lucas. I could live there man, it was awesome. Took a Glass bottomed boat tour and went to the beach. The beach water was clear as crystal to where you could see anything around you and warm like an indoor pool. Fish were swimming all around me, so close I could reach out and touch them and I was only about ten feet away from the shore. I saw a great show call Undercover. It was a song and dance review of Spies and such. It was really cool especially the Spy vs. Spy, Green Hornet, and James Bond stuff. Later that night I sang in the Princess Idol (American idol type thing) but lost. Saw a Magician who was pretty good. I won the Princess Price is Right game show… and then partied all night in the clubs. What a fantastic day!

Friday: After a great Thursday, Friday… SUCKED. I got sea sick because the waters were so rough… which made me mad because not once have I ever been Sea Sick! I spent the whole day laying down.

Saturday: Got off the boat... sad.

Today… Started the job hunt. Posted my resume on Monster.com and started looking through the classifieds.

Any Questions? Any Answers?

Dan

Hey the Ship has internet!

2004-10-31T11:56:00.000-08:00

I guess I shouldn't be surprised, everthing has internet now.

Anyway, I'm at sea right now, heading to Porta Vallarta. In about ten minutes I'm entering a Black Jack Tournament. Spent some time in the spa today, relaxing taking it easy...

Happy Halloween!

Dan

Cruise

2004-10-29T23:51:00.000-07:00

I leave for Mexico tomorrow. Be back in a week!

Dan

LA at last!

2004-10-28T20:15:00.000-07:00

Well, here I am in the sunshine state. The flight was a bit bumpy toward the end do to the clouds and rainy weather, but other than that it was okay. Thanks to Len and Chris for the graphic novels, they really helped pass the time.

I had a great time with everyone last night. The haunted houses were lots of fun and I was glad to see everyone again. Sorry I couldn't stay longer, I will miss you all.

In LA news, My Dad and Stepmom, Colleen, got a new dog. His name is Raymond and everyone loves him... (Damn that was a bad joke, maybe I should rethink this whole writer thing...). Seriously though, he seems great. He is a playful 9 month old Golden Retriever that has already making a habit of stealing my socks.

Everyone is already asking me, "So what are your plans? Do you have any prospects?" People, I just got off the damn plane! I have JET LAG! The only prospect I have is a warm bed and glass of milk! Ask me tomorrow.

Also I would like to say something to those of you that read comics. I will be getting mine a bit later than you so please be courteous and spoiler free. I don't want to know what happened in Rebirth or who the killer is in Identity Crisis before I read it. I thank you to mind this new BLOG rule.

Well, that's it for now...
It's tired and I'm late... er, you know what I mean...

Dan

People is Peoples...

2004-10-18T14:59:00.000-07:00

I can't believe it has been a week since I had a journal entry. Guess that shows how dull my life is... LOL. Seriously though, I really have had nothing to say.

My third to last day at Best Buy was today, I can't believe how many people had no clue I was leaving. Sometimes word just travels fast in that place and other times it just sits and festers. One of the managers, Karen, said she was going to buy a cake for a kind of going-away thing on Sat. (my last day). I thought that was very cool. Makes me feel like I'm going to be missed... which I know I am. I have made some really great friends there, especially in the last few months. I've started hanging out with Eli again which is always cool. Plus I have made some great friends in Starkey, Mike, Richie, Wirkus, Tristan, Greg, Shawn, Jason, Brad, Mandy, Stephanie, Suzanne, and so forth (if I forgot anyone I'm sorry). Geneva, my supervisor has always been one of my best friends there, as have people like Robert even though they don't work there anymore.

I've also made great friends here in Cape, other than at Best Buy. There are the ones who have moved away like Jammie, Angie, Matt, Michael, Doug, and Buddy. Though I almost never see or talk to them, I still treasure the time I spent with them. They are all very important parts of my life, and I regret not keeping as in touch with them as I should. Then lastly there are people like Len, Ken, Katie, Jeff, Rick, Chris C. And Rocky. These people are more than friends to me. They are family. It's going to be very strange not seeing or talking to them everyday/every week. I think that's what is going to be the hardest part of this move is leaving all of these new and old friends behind, just like the hardest part of going to SEMO was leaving all my Bug-Juice friends.

I want desperately to keep in touch with all of you. Stay friends with you... I hope it's possible...

That is where this blog comes in. This blog is going to be my connection to everyone. I will use it to update everyone on my status in LA, the job hunt, the social front, whether or not I'm going to kill my family, etc. If you wish to be on a list to be notified when this blog is updated... please e-mail me your e-mail address or post it to comments below. You don't have to have a blogger account to post a comment to me. You can post anonymously and just enter your name into the text.

Anyway to wrap up, the title of today's blog "People is Peoples" is from the Muppets take Manhattan. I love Muppet movies and I thought the quote fit.

Cya for now,

Dan
zorakdc@yahoo.com
(note this is not my normal e-mail, just one I'm using for this post)

Kryptonite...

2004-10-11T00:21:00.000-07:00

Christopher Reeve has passed away. Superman has died... I really don't know what to say about this other than I am shocked. I truly believed that one day he would walk again. This is indeed a tragic day...

Goodbye Chris,
You made us believe a man could fly...
Rest in Peace.

Christopher Reeve
1952-2004

Two in one day... The Horror...

2004-10-10T16:34:00.000-07:00

This is a big long rant I posted at the council blog a few minutes ago... I like it, so I'm putting it here too. Enjoy.

{ It is sad how people who were once very close grow apart, but that is life. I remember when Quill and Shark were great friends... but things change I guess. I myself have always tried to be neutral... never wanting to take one friend's side over another, but even doing that has been tiresome. Someone came to me the other day and as usual the topic of conversation came to Bug-juice goings on. This person said "Do you ever notice that when Quill is pissed or upset at someone, he will try to turn everyone in the group against that person."
I replied with a "Yes, I have noticed that, but aren't you doing the same thing to him right now? Aren't you trying to make me feel that Quill is wrong and that I should be angry at him too? All that we have talked about is how Quill does this and that, and those things are wrong... Isn't that the exact same thing as what you say he does?"
The person realized I was right and dropped the subject...
I have noticed that it seems that the major dispute has always been relationships or problem with one’s mate.I wish that things could go back to where people didn't have to worry about if their friends approve of their girlfriends or boyfriends or fiancées... Well actually thinking about it, it has never been that way. People in this group have always told the others exactly what they think of there significant others, good, bad, or otherwise.
People, Who a person decides to be with or not is not a personal insult to you, though some of you take it that way. They are not with this person just to piss you off or see what you think of them. They are with them because they quite possibly love them. Compared to that a friends opinion of the significant other doesn't even compare. For example, when Quill was dating his now wife... if people said "That person is wrong for you." the answer would have been "Fuck You!" As it should be. So why would it be any different for ant other friend?
Many of you are lucky to have a significant other... someone who you can talk to, cry to, hold, and kiss, whatever. You should be happy that one of your friends has found that too. The only time a friend should speak ill of someone’s mate is if that mate has possibly done harm to your friend.

Anyway... Why did I post this here???

Hmmmm... }

Q

How many...

2004-10-10T15:40:00.000-07:00

Hi guys. I seem to be having a hard time keeping up with this web log thing. I just have a hard time thinking of things to say. My life isn't that exciting to begin with, so keeping a journal is kind of... odd. I still want to do it, but the thing is I really can't judge how many people actually come here, read my stuff, and listen to what I have to say. So I'm going to start a game. Starting right now until next Sunday I want to see how many comments from different friends I get. Everyone who reads this should comment... I don't care if all you type is "Hi" or "Bye" or "Asexual monkey." It doesn't matter, just write something so I know you are out there. If I get enough different friends I will reward everyone by... well, now that would spoil it if I told you, wouldn't it?

Q

The Novel is on page 44... I'm a lazy ass

2004-10-07T21:33:00.000-07:00

So I have been thinking lately... about this California trip, and I'm actually getting excited about it. But in other news... um... I know there is something... wait... no... wait... no... A HA! Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I just really had nothing to say. I scraped the entire last five pages of Chapter 2 of my novel and rewrote them... I think it's better now. Chapter 2 is now done. YAY! But I'm only on page 44 now, (I know I lost a few, but it's okay). Anyway I thought the picture of me was cool.

Halo and other stuff...

2004-10-01T02:14:00.000-07:00

Well, I've started playing Halo every week at a friends house and there are a few things I must say about it...

1. I still hate X-box, but I'm enjoying this game
2. I suck at Halo. Everyone else is getting 50 kills and I'm getting like 12
3. Dual analog controls suck, but since that's how I learned to play (albeit not very well) I can't switch to normal (Goldeneye type) controls. They just feel strange now.
4. The theme music to Halo sounds like Riverdance. (Lord of the Master Chief? Starring Micheal Flatley?)
5. Capture the flag blows, as does the Sidewinder multiplayer level.
6. Halo is one of the most addicting pieces of crap ever invented! Bastards!

On to other things... I can't sleep, I played GO all night and got my ass whooped almost everytime, I made a new friend from Singapore, I told my boss at work I'm moving to LA, I haven't worked on my novel (bad me), I haven't sent in the short story I need to send in (double bad me), I think Captain Crunch is working with domesticated felines to overthrow the Govt. of France (Go Capt.!).

I think that's it for now...

Q

The novel is still on page 46 (didn't you read what I wrote?)

At work...

2004-09-30T14:43:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm at work, and I'm on one of the computers. I'm not supposed to be, but all the managers are in a meeting... Mwa hahahahahahahahaha!!! That will show them!

God, I'm so bored...

Hey I got am Idea! Let's sing the song Quill and I made up so long ago...
Ready?

Oh this job sucks,
I hate this job,
It sucks worse than your job...

Um... yeah

Q

The the novel is still on page 46

News and more news....

2004-09-28T12:54:00.000-07:00

I have become fascinated with the game "Go." It's a territory capture game played with white and black stones. It originally started in China and has since become popular in Japan, Korea, and the U.S. (to some extent, you can play it on Yahoo games now.) I really am enjoying learning this new game, but I get frustrated because, well quite frankly, I suck. But I am determined to improve and become stronger...

In other news, I'm moving to California...

(Dramatic Pause)

Yes, I'm being serious. I just don't feel that things are going anywhere for me here. I figure you have to take risks or life will just pass you by. "You miss 100% of the shots you don't take," someone told me the other day and this is true. I'm not going to lie and say I'm not scared, I'm terrified! But this is something I feel I have to do. I'm going to live there for about half a year and try to make something of my life, and if it doesn't work I'll try somewhere else. Life is just passing me by, and I better get on the train before it's gone. I'm leaving on the 27th of October... I would like to see all of you before then if possible...

I'm going to continue to blog to keep in touch with everyone (which was another reason I started doing it).

I'm also going to keep you posted on how my novel is coming. Every blog I will tell you what page I'm on. Hopefully that will keep me motivated...
I might even post passages from it occasionally.

That's it for today...

Q

The Novel is on page 42

Answers...

2004-09-25T00:48:00.000-07:00

This is it... The moment none of you have been waiting for...

But before I do that...

The Thing is I feel that I need to explain my actions. The Who I am is not as important as the why I was doing what I was doing. I have been part of this group a long time and it hurts me to see what it has been going through the past couple of years. I don't get to see you guys that much, and when I get news it's always bad. "He did this... She did that... He's going out with her, which sucks and he shouldn’t... etc." I'm fucking sick of it (pardon the language). This group was great once, we all had fun and enjoyed life, but somewhere along the line politics entered the picture. Friend turned against friend, fighting for dominance. Doom was falling on us all.

The Question arose by accident. I never had come to the blogs before, but just seeing all the fighting and such, they reminded me why sometimes I was glad I didn't live in St. Louis anymore. Then I had an idea, I would create a mystery and spread clues around so that people could compare and maybe band together and figure out just who I was. I had hoped people would remember how lucky we were to have friends there for us when we needed them. I know many of us didn't have friends growing up, and Bug-Juice (though I always thought the name was stupid) was our first real social interaction. Didn’t you guys wonder why I always ended most of my posts with band together (or something similar)?

As for who I am? Figure it out for yourselves. I'm done. I left you enough clues in the above statement that even the densest of you should figure it out...

If anybody wants me, I'll be in my trailer...

P.S. The next post is going to be about trusting your friends (or in some cases the lack there of)

Enough of this Charade

2004-09-23T23:43:00.000-07:00

The facade is coming to an end...

The Identity will come to a head...

The doomsday will fall on Sat....

Question 3

2004-09-22T13:43:00.000-07:00

A new day, a new Question...

Have you ever thought about how music and movies became such a focus of our society? They are so influental the can effect the way we act, dress, or talk. They can affect what we eat, who we associate with, and even how we feel about other people and races. What if this power fell into the wrongs hands...

I know what you are saying, "Question, tell us something new, learn a different tune already. Besides that has already happened, like during World War 2. It could never happen here."

Look at the goths, the preps, the nerds, etc. All factions created by the media as a means to divide us. Make us hate each other. Petty arguements, and differences that in the long run mean nothing. Eventually these factions will destroy us all.

Together the truth is seen...

Answers in vague...

2004-09-21T13:37:00.000-07:00

Answers in vague…

The true identity comes from within…
The clues to it are there to the one’s who can see the truth…

Question 2

2004-09-21T02:19:00.000-07:00

I seemed to have created a stir in the group. A few are angry... some are confused... some don't care. So in celebration of this I post my next question...

What exactly is reverse osmosis? It is what purifies the bottled water people drink but what exactly is it? Radiation? Chemicals? Rat poison? No one knows for sure... Maybe they are just fancy words some guy decided to put on the label. It sounds good right? "Reverse Osmosis... people will have no idea what it is or what it does. Lets stick that on the label of the bottle."

But could reverse osmosis truely be bad? It makes water taste fresh and clear, free of germs and other contaminations. Or does it? What if it actually rots your teeth faster? What if it implants things into your body to track you and your movements? Of course I can't prove any of this... but the Question is still there...

Question 1

2004-09-20T11:13:00.000-07:00

The question for today is: Have you ever read what it says in the Terms of Service agreements that pop up when you download something from the internet? Didn't think so. So how do you truly know what they say? How do you know you didn’t sign away your soul for that AOL instant messenger? Just something to think about…

This is my first BLOG, sticking to it shall be the hardest part. It seems like a good way to keep in touch with people... anonymously...

2004-09-20T10:24:00.000-07:00

The Question is...